June 07. Wedding date. B and I won't be ready for kids for a while. The plan is to travel frequently and save money. (DEF HAD FUN. SAVING MONEY? COULDA DONE BETTER)
Dec.07-Dec.08. Living day by day. Dad becomes terminally ill and dies almost a year later. (BABIES NEVER CROSSED OUR MIND AT THIS TIME. MAYBE IT SHOULD HAVE)
Spring 09. We decide we'll try during the summer. (WOULDA STARTED TRYING NOW IF I'D HAVE KNOWN WHAT WOULD COME)
June 09. Stop BC pills. (SHOULDA DONE THIS MONTHS AGO!)
July 09. Start trying after getting back from vacation. (MY MOTHER GOT PREGNANT ON THE FIRST TRY, SO WHY SHOULDN'T I?)
August 09. Monthly messenger arrives to announce I'm not pregnant. (OKAY MAYBE IT WILL BE NEXT MONTH)
September 09. Not pregnant. (WELL SOMETIMES IT TAKES THREE MONTHS...)
October 09. Late. Get a negative pregnancy test first week and don't take another one - thinking I'll get symptoms or a period. At about four weeks late, on a Saturday I have an experience that I self-diagnose as a miscarriage. Hometown gyno says to look on the bright side - everything seems to be working. That's it.
November 09. Not pregnant.
December 09. PREGNANT!!!!! Great joy! Make appt with new gyno in the "city." Make announcement to families at Christmas. Internet browsing for baby stuff. Reread 11 pregnancy books faster than I've read anything in my life. Happy happy happy. Oh yes and crazy symptoms too. But only one sick day.
January 10. Monday school resumes after Christmas break. I start spotting immediately. Wednesday sonogram looks abnormal. Thursday after school miscarriage begins. Lasts 48 hours. Excruciating pain. Had pain pills this time. (MOURNED MORE THAN I EXPECTED. DEFINITELY MORE THAN THE FIRST TIME)
Dr. sends blood off for different tests. Says to hold off on baby making for three months.
Tests return normal. So this is where I am. We get to try again in April.
Congrats to Laura Dekker!
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*Laura Dekker on board her boat 'Guppy'*
Laura Dekker finished her solo-circumnavigation today in St Martin Island
in the Carribean.
Congratualtions Laura...
12 years ago
I can tell we do the both with mom. I always have to tell her I'm fine, nothings wrong, I'm not upset. Because if I ever tell her that I AM upset about anything "you need to go to the doctor" "its not normal" ggggt 5mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmx6666ggggggggggggg
ReplyDeleteAnd she basically....over reacts and worries herself into a frenzy.
(She told me you told her you werent upset....or you told me that....or both)
Toffee interjected on that. Sorry. I think she was saying hello.
And april?? Thats so far away!
But you know, practice makes perfect, and right now its off-season. You know what that means.